I want to live and I want to die. I wonder what would happen if I lived a little longer. If I die now, everything will be easier

I relate myself to how you feel. You feel like dying because that's how much you suffer. I believe there's value in choosing to live with that much pain. We don't need to have an answer now. Someday, without even noticing it, we may be living in the answer. I live my life day by day, trying to create some value in my life and others'. I'm hoping that someday when I look back on I would feel I lived a pretty good life.

ななしさん

Just live.
There is no purpose in living.
Eliminate all the thoughts from your head and wake up and feel the five senses.
That alone will tell you how wonderful it is to be alive.

I'm sorry, I'm Japanese.
I can't speak or read English.

I'm writing a sentence using Google's translation function.
Is it transmitted properly?

Still, I wrote this sentence because I wanted you to live.

Enjoy living.

ななしさん

I think you can live in your feeling.
I feel and I think too like you, I want to die but I want to live.
By the way,Let me tell you my opinions.
 I’m still alive. I think It doesn’t have other meaning. I think it can’t.
You live here now. So I think you can live still, as me. Hehe
……and it means you can die like my brother. But, I feel, I think, I want you don’t be die……
Sooooooo I want to you live relax! I know that it’s hard to do…… but you can do it. Let’s do with me, with us.
Anytime come here if you feel none fine. We will give you tooooooo big hug!!!!!!!!!

Sorry my English skill is too poor, and my brain hasn’t been working. I’m not sure that you can understand my……”nonsense”. If you can’t understand my message, I’m so sorry.